Do you ever get wrapped up in a feeling of immense awe for everything you’ve been blessed with? This morning, as the rain pelted down from the sky, obscuring the silhouette of the mountains that I’ve grown accustomed to waking up to the sight of, I felt a calmness wash over me. I am incredibly lucky for the opportunities that have come my way, and the beautiful people that I have had the privilege to know. Whilst things don’t always go according to plan, or the way we’d like them to, I truly believe that every obstacle we overcome only makes us wiser and more self-aware.
My two goals in life are to be a good person and to make the most of my short time on this earth doing whatever it is that makes me happy. As someone once dear to me said, “enough money to not care about money, enough time to have choices and enough love to never feel lonely.” Even though he is no longer a part of my world, his words have stayed as poignantly true as they did the first time I read them through enamoured eyes. Through the years, I have become increasingly impulsive, without too much thought of the repercussions of me speaking my truth. So long as my intentions come from a place of love and grace, I will continue to do so.
Why should we walk this earth without expressing our feelings? I’ve denied that part of me in the past but I’ve come to love that side of myself. She is brave and strong, even if at times a little fearful. I’d like to think that the fear helps me evolve into something more and I no longer care about conventional norms or the best way to play the game. And fuck it, if this really is all a game, then I’d like to be the protagonist of my own story. I will always strive to be true to myself even if it leads to unintended consequences. At least I know I’ll have always tried my best and that’s the best any of us can do.
This year is going to filled with adventures that are too great to count and I am so looking forward to experiencing it all.
Do I Dare Disturb The Universe? 