Fear

Having long since left the years of youthful innocence behind me, I realise it takes immense courage and a conscious commitment to prevent fear from dictating the journey ahead. How I wish to hold the carefree vision in my hands again and approach every situation with unencumbered bravery. But as one grows up, they experience snippets of the world that can change the entire flavour of who they thought they were. We are all capable of personal growth through the wisdom provided by the lens of history, but memories dipped in darkness can have a profound and incommensurate impact on how we choose to face the future.

In times of uncertainty, I often hear a small, timid voice within me encouraging me to hide away some place only I know until the threat subsides. And it’s tempting, especially when the uneasy feeling begins to spread inside my belly, accompanied by unwelcome scrutiny about the adequacy of my life choices.

But it is in these moments I choose to channel a past me; she may not be as wise or as compassionate but she is unbound, infinite and daring. She has a soft heart but a stubborn will and that’s what got her to where she is now. Sometimes we need a little bit of that chaotic energy to stir us from our cabin of comfort and remind us that we are truly alive, as to be alive is to feel.